Fourty
Today, I turned 40. I thought I would dread this day. I cried on my 29th birthday because 30 was just around the corner and it was scary. But then I turned 30, and I finally started to feel comfortable in my own skin. I was figuring out what I wanted, and didn't want, out of my relationships with people and with myself. I didn't need a million friends that I needed to pretend for, just a few that I could be my true self around. My thirties was a time where I was finally figuring out who I was. But it was also a time where I wasn't sure what my life had in store for me. At 31, I was diagnosed with Lupus. Over the next couple years, my doctors and I worked to figure out a medical plan for me going forward. I spent my 35th birthday in the hospital due to complications and then was in and out of hospital over the next two years. I almost didn't make it to 37. But now here I am, FOURTY. I have started getting wrinkles. My body aches sometimes (ok, a lot of the time). I...