Give Some Sparkle

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Happy Canada Day, friends! I hope you all get a chance to get out and enjoy some of the great festivities around the city.

Today is day 13 in the hospital. The doctors are getting closer to finding out just what's causing my blood levels to be so low so I'm thankful for that. I've endured some pretty intense procedures. One of them was a bone marrow biopsy where they basically drill (by hand) into your hip bone and extract bone marrow with a syringe. That part of it was certainly uncomfortable but they were able to use local anesthetic to ease the discomfort. The second part of the procedure was not at all fun. They had to take a small core sample of my actual bone. They unfortunately are unable to freeze the bone itself so I felt everything. Apparently, depending on your pain threshold, some people have no issues. I wasn't one of those lucky ones. But it's over, I feel only a little discomfort and they feel that they will have more concrete answers once they get the results.

What I'm really thankful for though are blood donors. Since being in here, I have received a couple of different blood products. Before being diagnosed with Lupus, I used to try and donate every 56 days. It took very little time on my part and I thought if I could help someone, why shouldn't I? I never thought I would be on the receiving end of one of those donations. I now know how important and valuable it is to someone who needs it. If you are able to donate, I highly encourage it. You never know when or if you may need it yourself.

So random strangers who selflessly donated a part of yourself to help others, thank you for your sparkle that is now a part of me and my recovery. 💖


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